PSA Celebrating Would-Be Mothers

Martine St. Hilaire
May 10, 2016
2 min read

Updated: Jul 18, 2021

Most people don't know this but, I had an abortion in 2013. It was the hardest thing I've ever experienced, and I've been through severe life storms.

I was in a seven year relationship with someone, but I broke it off in 2009. A few years after the breakup we were still seeing each other off and on. This led to a pregnancy. At the time, I thought I wasn't financially capable of caring for a child and there was no way in hell I was going to let my child suffer in a low-income household. I wanted more for this baby, but I knew how life would be if I chose to have it.

I didn't talk to anyone bout this, other than the potential baby's father. He felt the same way I felt which made the choice to have an abortion easier. I was certain this was the right thing to do. But what I failed to realize, though I was blindly convinced I was ready, was the fact that I truly wasn't.

I came out of the termination process feeling exhausted and ashamed. At the time, I was heavily into church, yet that didn't make matters any easier. I wanted to tell my parents about being pregnant, but I couldn't face their judgement. They were extremely strict when it came to raising their 8 children. I felt ridiculously alone.

I realize now that I was wrong to take my parents' grandchild and my siblings' niece or nephew away from them. I know what's done is done, but I have acknowledged that this choice was something I was not prepared for and will never make again.

I've decided to break my silence by creating this video celebrating Would-Be Moms who've experienced a miscarriage, birth complication or a regrettable abortion.

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